gayathri

Last week was:

ReviewOMatic at work - some of the anon reviews were harsh. :( Boss was great tho, and pointed out the _same_ issues but in far more constructive ways.

Prop 8 passing - I feel like its time to come out of the closet in a lot of ways because of this. My dyke friends kind of laugh about this, because they never had a choice about being in a closet, but just 'cause I'm dating a guy right now doesnt mean that I'm not bisexual.

Panic triggered by certain speech patterns that Pat would do to me before reducing me to tears and making me admit I was wrong. (I had finally met someone MORE stubborn that me in that guy, and those things happened for over 4 years,) I had to remind myself that this was patrick, and this wasnt the same pattern.

Slamming into the communications wall. Finding out how much of a mushroom I had made myself, and still being depressed about my own inability to see past my nose or getting over myself.

Money stress - of course. urgh. so many bills to catch up on!

A real deep raging grief over things that never were and grief over things that I missed.

Feeling like I get no time at all with the people who are important to me, and no time at all for myself for the things I want to do.