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can't sleep, clowns will eat me
Jan. 10th, 2005 01:41 amI can't sleep! argh! This rain is really screwing with me. :(
a comment last night, was that I have a 'blunderbuss' approach to life. Or meeting people. More like I could go to a lot of events, and I'd know someone at it -- that I didnt care if I did, because I could and would meet someone if I wanted.
Odd, 'cause I often go to bars, or clubs and never meet someone, but I suspect its more 'cause I dont want to, vs not being able to -- part of how I can and am invisible when there are too many people.
I was confused and a little offended by the blunderbuss comment -- like I'm indiscriminate in who I speak with and meet, but then thought about that, and took it back -- I AM indiscriminate in who I speak with and meet, but I _am_ pretty careful who gets 'in' past that -- too careful, I think, sometimes, but that's ok. The comment was more made that I am willing to be 'out there' and open and available to talk to people
I was talking to patrick earlier today, and he said that it was more then that -- in another time and place, we would be talking about insipiring and leading armies. I laugh at that, tho I still recall dreams of horses and men and tents and wide open skys that dont have anything to do with the Riders of Rohan. I dont want to inspire anyone, but here I am last night, feeling very lo energy at the party, which meant I talked more then played, and having more then one person tell me that they read what I write on different lists, and enjoy what I have to say.
Thank goodness for being articulate, and for having opinions, and having my flaming skills honed over years of Usenet and for no longer having the time or energy to use 'em!
a comment last night, was that I have a 'blunderbuss' approach to life. Or meeting people. More like I could go to a lot of events, and I'd know someone at it -- that I didnt care if I did, because I could and would meet someone if I wanted.
Odd, 'cause I often go to bars, or clubs and never meet someone, but I suspect its more 'cause I dont want to, vs not being able to -- part of how I can and am invisible when there are too many people.
I was confused and a little offended by the blunderbuss comment -- like I'm indiscriminate in who I speak with and meet, but then thought about that, and took it back -- I AM indiscriminate in who I speak with and meet, but I _am_ pretty careful who gets 'in' past that -- too careful, I think, sometimes, but that's ok. The comment was more made that I am willing to be 'out there' and open and available to talk to people
I was talking to patrick earlier today, and he said that it was more then that -- in another time and place, we would be talking about insipiring and leading armies. I laugh at that, tho I still recall dreams of horses and men and tents and wide open skys that dont have anything to do with the Riders of Rohan. I dont want to inspire anyone, but here I am last night, feeling very lo energy at the party, which meant I talked more then played, and having more then one person tell me that they read what I write on different lists, and enjoy what I have to say.
Thank goodness for being articulate, and for having opinions, and having my flaming skills honed over years of Usenet and for no longer having the time or energy to use 'em!
