urgh. sick of myself!

[gayathri]

I havent been to the gym in a dogs age. forever. I dont even want to go back and look how long its been. I finally hit a wall yesterday when I realized I was starting to hate myself again for being a fat lazy potatoe slug.

So I went to the gym after work.

Mainly to see if I could manage it.

Not so good, as it turns out, actually - tho I'd eaten a snack before, I had a bad blood sugar drop right after - not so bad, I'll drink chocolate milk! But I was so shakey that I managed to get chocolate milk all over my shirt, and sent a txt to the wrong place.

BUT the workout itself was awesome! I feel so much better now. I dont know if I have time tonite, but I think I'll try and go again. This weekend, going to go pick up a trainer for my mtn bike, so I can at least bicycle from home on my crazy early days. Definately going tomorrow (Friday) and Saturday as well.

In utter ridiculousness, I was playing Rock Band last night - just the bass part. I can do a lot of stuff on the bass in 'medium'. :)  Anyone play online? I tried it last weekend with byronium  and it was very stressful! plus some of the songs were STUPID hard. The stress part is when I play with the Array, its fine, just fun, even if we screw up. But with strangers, "oh gods, they see how awful I am!" 



Today, dinner at Front Porch with some of the hot park ranger chicks, tho having JUST cancelled my credit card due to a weird couple of transactions, I'm kinda screwed unless they spot me until I can get to a bank tomorrow. (*sigh*) AND hopefully my new card shows up tomorrow, as paying bills might be a little exciting. DOH!  Fortunately a lot of places will take checks over the fone, but dang, that means CALLING people. argh! 

Tomorrow, perhaps take the car to work, as its supposed to rain, and I dont have rain gear for the motorcycle (*yet*) and not certain my laptop bag is waterproof (oops).  Definately time for a new bag.

Lunch involved being kidnapped. Slight role reversal there, but still, I dont mind. :)


 

Comments

[unclebooboo.livejournal.com]

Good for you! The thing about working out is that when you're in the habbit it's relatively easy to keep it up. When you've fallen off the wagon you have all of the usual problems of getting back on the wagon, combined with the fact that the exercise itself is harder because you've fallen off the wagon...

(He says, as he's trying to get back up to running a decent 20 miles a week- the "recovery" from the half marathon became an excuse to not run...)

[lil-brown-bat.livejournal.com]

Tom Peters once said how it's easy to commit to working out...you only have to do it once, and it takes an instant. Keeping that commitment, OTOH, is a daily chore. And, while there will be days when it is easy and even fun, you really should assume that it is going to be a chore, that it isn't going to be fun or convenient or even particularly rewarding in the immediate sense. You have to develop the habit of doing things that aren't fun right now, and you have to develop the strength to ignore the voice saying, "But this isn't fuuuuun!" and keep on doin'.

Look at it this way, you have 24 hours in the day. So does everyone else -- no one gets any more. You have a job and a commute, which probably take up about the same time for you that they take everyone else. Your sleep needs are probably pretty much normal for someone of your age. The time it takes you to boil water, make breakfast, do laundry, all those necessary daily chores, is the same time it takes anyone else, neither more nor less. The time that is left over is discretionary time, and it is your choice how you spend it, and your priorities that determine how you spend it. And, really...to be honest, you have about as much discretionary time as anyone who isn't independently wealthy. You don't have kids or other dependents who require hours and hours of care every day, and you don't have some kind of special circumstances that chew up tons of your time. I know it may not seem like you have a lot of time, but...you have as much as you're gonna get, as much as anyone I know gets. Whenever you don't go to the gym, and it's because you're "too busy" or "not enough time", you really have to stop and ask yourself what you're doing instead of going to the gym. Chances are, it's something you're choosing to do. So if that's your choice, fine, make it...but don't then come back with the "big potato slug" stuff. It's your choice, so own it and don't regret it.