leading it back to the recurring nightmare - "success" would be defined by getting past the thing, and not dying. In my recurring dream, there was never any success there, every choice still led to my falling off a cliff and dying. The poem brought up that nightmare very vividly.... so I'm reading a lot of the recurring dream in that poem.

The other thing is that I'm a pretty stubborn girl - a challenge like, "what are you going to do about it" makes me say, "I dont want to play YOUR game!Pbbth!" I never did dares, or handled challenges from others well.