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Sunday morning, woke up to almost perfect blood sugars. I was in shock. but so so joyful. Almost called my doctor to let him know, but didnt want to wake him. I could do the ride!!

Stayed out of @byronium's way while he got ready for the ride: skydrive.live.com/redir.aspx

Took a lot of deep breaths - I was really still nervous about doing this ride. I wasnt sure I could finish it. My 'training' hadnt been very much, and last weekends ride was painful. @byronium reiterated to me that he sincerely thought I could do it, and I took his and @llamaeyes comments from the Chris Carmichael talk to heart, and decided to do what I usually do - warm up, pedal thru, rest when I needed it, drink LOTS.

I got to the start fairly quickly - 1.5 miles just isnt very far, even if the last bit is all in the tiniest of gears... leaving around 7, I wondered if I'd see @byronium, but I didnt. The roads and the town of Yountville were COMPLETELY empty as I left the hotel. Not a soul on the road, it was pretty eerie.

"I'm so alone," I thought. And then came into the craziness that was the start. And still felt very alone in the big crowd. I made sure I was all ready, that my bike was all set, water bottles were full, inhalers and other drugs were available and waited for 8 am. A nice lady came over to talk to me, and we spoke about getting ready and being prepared for the ride. She made the mistake assuming I was a type 1. A lot of people did that on this ride.

She was pretty nervous about the 26 miles, but we talked about what she'd done to train for it, and how she felt, and I told her, "you wont know that you can do it until you've done it, but I believe given what youve said, you will be able to finish!"

I was telling myself the same thing.

Blood sugars good, the day was starting to warm up. I wanted to leave at 8, but told @llamaeyes I'd wait for her. @rhiannonstone arrived just before 8, having ridden the 6 miles or so from the hotel to the start. Apparently that's what she needed to do to eat breakfast. The smell of food made me want to barf, so I let her go and waited some more, after telling here where to find air pumps for her tires.

@llamaeyes and @moxie showed up just before 8 and it didnt take long for us to get started.

I remember going under the start line and hearing the announcer, "Look at that big smile!" as everyone yelled, "Go Red Rider!"
and realized I _was_ smiling. I could RIDE today! huzzah!!! I was looking forward to my body moving, my lungs taking in breath, my legs pumping.

I didnt take pics at all my stops, which I'm sad about! The 1st time was in this lovely space just outside of Yountville, big gorgeous fields rolling away. (I'm hoping @llamaeyes has some)

At the 5 mile mark, there wasnt more water, so I pushed on ahead. It was great getting @byronium's mass texts to all of us as he hit the different rest stops. I was glad he seemed to be moving so well and quickly.

1st Rest Stop: skydrive.live.com/redir.aspx



Blood sugar was doing well, I was drinking plenty of cytomax and got to refill it. The Tour de Cure also had Cytomax powder, but the 100 / 80 milers had cleaned them. I was glad I had plenty of sticks of Cytomax - ended up giving a few away to folks. I was also using Accelerade, which has some protein as well as sugars, but I find that I need a lot less of it then is recommended (whey protein is still hard to digest for me. :/ ) It looks like for 50 miles and under, I can manage on just Cytomax, and should stick with it.

The next bit of riding wasnt bad, I was warmed up, and my lungs were happy, I started feeling like I was going to be ok! There were sections of road that were just painful in their bad pavement. My butt and wrists were not thanking me for this. oh look, scenery! I kept telling myself that.

Second rest stop! there was Cytomax powder here! I filled up. I drank. I tweeted, facebooked and texted. @llamaeyes and @rhiannonstone showed up. I stretched and drank some more, and headed on out after making sure @llamaeyes didnt need me.

at the 25 mile mark, I stopped, half way there, humming bon jovi to myself. This kinda neat place was across the street.


skydrive.live.com/redir.aspx

I managed to take a dorktastic picture of myself :

skydrive.live.com/redir.aspx
 
I took a short break at 25.something miles.  I drank more, and looked at my fone - I'd been posting to Facebook and Twitter and texting friends, but hadnt looked at any responses. The @tweets, and facebook support was _amazing_, friends, former coworkers, people coming out about their relationship with diabetes. Even folks who were supposedly out of town and unavailable took out time to text and connect. I started bawling. I mean, I didnt need to dehydrate myself this way, but this coupled with peletons of the 80 and 100 milers catching up and passing me, yelling "GO RED RIDER" and seeing other red riders pedaling so strongly, was amazing and touching and weepymaking. 

I probably cried all my sunblock off. and no, I didnt take a worse picture of myself like that. 

at the third and final rest stop, I was now feeling _awesome_ - blood sugars again still amazing, and I felt so good, I made the mistake on the ride. I saw some peanut butter sandwiches and thought, "oh! that looks good," and ate a quarter of one. BIG MISTAKE. completely upset my stomach. yuck. 

this was the only thing that spoiled the rest of the ride for me. I felt horrible, like I was going to throw up any minute, but managed to keep it all down and kept drinking even tho I no longer wanted to. This probably didnt help the dehydration much. (My blood sugars started shooting up. :/) 

the last few miles of the ride were in a really bad headwind. I tried cursing, but it didnt help. @llamaeyes and @rhiannonstone caught up to me at one point while I was hanging over my handlebars, I must have looked pretty green as they both commented. 

Mostly at this point, getting to the end was more about willpower and desire to Not Be On The Bike vs any joy in it. I missed that place where it felt good, like from miles 10 - 38... I was worried I wouldnt make it, so close to the end, and kept pedaling until I was back near the start. 

There's a small footbridge that leads up to the 'start finish' line, and I waited there, texting Moxie to let her know I was coming and waiting for @llamaeyes. (This is another story all together, HER issues and stressors getting to this ride,) and I wanted to cross the line with her, because she's been supporting me all the way (and hopefully, I was as well) 

Aside: she and I both have this issue, where we worry about other people so we dont have time to deal with ourselves. At dinner sat night, I tried to make her promise not to care about me at all and to concentrate on herself. I think I almost made her cry 'cause it was so hard for her to say that she would Take Care of herself. So I made it a little easier, and asked her to take good care of my Llama, and I would take good care of her Wolf. 

 
I heard her, "I can't stop! I mean, I could, but I dont want to!" and I said, "Dont worry, I'll catch up" and hopped on the bike and followed her across the footbridge. 

Having done this a few times before, I knew what was waiting for me at the end, and I was so so glad to share that with @llamaeyes. 

See, everyone who sees a red rider cross the finish line is supposed to CHEER like a crazy person. I dont like being so obvious and seen, so I have to stoke myself up for this, but its much more fun to share it with someone, and I'm glad she was there for me!! 

we waited for @rhiannonstone, who wasnt that far behind, and cheered her across the line. And after resting and drinking lots of liquids, came back down to cheer @byronium across the line as well. 


everyone was kind of floaty and stoned from this. I'm grateful for everyone's help and time and effort that it took to put on the event, and for the friends near and far who were really really THERE for me, as well as for @byronium, @llamaeyes and @rhiannonstone. 

 
Next year, will I do the 100? ;) 
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It had been a super long week - just with work and trying to figure out a schedule that would work to make sure that Byron can do enough riding to get into doing a Century in May, and making sure I get to spend SOME time in my place in SF, and he gets time in RWC.

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So all in all, a really great weekend. So glad to be back bicycling. Looking forward to next weekend!











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@byronium and I went to this last night: http://www.diabetes.org/in-my-community/local-offices/san-francisco-california/

and i'm really glad I did! It was fun meeting other Red Riders, and I learned about: http://teamwild.org/ <- women triatheletes with diabetes! omg.

I also met some awesome women who were really inspiring, as well as had an opportunity to talk to Dr. Suneil Koliwad, a research doctor at UCSF! We had a great chat about some things to try to help me with longer distance bicycling, and he recommended how to find a few doctors who might be helpful in terms of knowing enough about diabetes and athletic training to see if I can get over some humps.

I was really touched by some of the stories presented - I didnt know who the Bachelor was (probably the ONLY woman there who didnt) but his father's story was similar enough I was choked up about being afraid of admitting to it. It brought up struggles around being silenced by my family's shame, to silencing myself, to ignoring it, to letting it get out of control. I'm glad I had a wakeup before it actually killed me.

Who knew that 26 million people suffer from this? I didnt. Its impacted from so many issues from food safety, access, ethnicity, choices made by our parents, choices made by us in the past, its so complicated! 

The biggest, scareiest thing for me is that Just Having Diabetes, I've _doubled_ my chances of having a heart attack.

Some quick facts from last night: 
  • Diabetes affects 25.8 million people of all ages
    • 8.3 percent of the U.S. population
  • Among U.S. residents ages 65 years and older, 10.9 million, or 26.9 percent, had diabetes in 2010. (My father and uncle are in this group, btw.) 
  • In 2005–2008, based on fasting glucose or hemoglobin A1C (A1C) levels, 35 percent of U.S. adults ages 20 years or older had prediabetes—50 percent of adults ages 65 years or older. Applying this percentage to the entire U.S. population in 2010 yields an estimated 79 million American adults ages 20 years or older with prediabetes.
  • Diabetes is the leading cause of kidney failure, nontraumatic lower-limb amputations, and new cases of blindness among adults in the United States.
    • AMPUTATIONS! BLINDNESS! huge fears for me. :/ 
  • Diabetes is a major cause of heart disease and stroke.
  • Diabetes is the seventh leading cause of death in the United States.

I'm deeply grateful for @byronium for coming with me last night, and for all my friends who are doing the ride both for themselves and in supporting me, it means a whole lot!


Please support me: even just the cost of a cup of coffee would mean a tremendous amount!






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Saturday night was awesome – Byron had thawed out some meatballs, and Clairese cooked the spaghetti and meatballs for us, as well as made an awesome salad. So yum. We ate too much. Big huge monster thanks to Clairese for all her support – feeding us, as well as being super supportive.

Sunday, woke up at 630 am, checked my blood sugar: normal for me, 133
read Clairese’s note on the board wishing us luck, felt the love!

Started drinking cytomax, and had 1/3 cup of slow cooked oatmeal with about a tablespoon of peanut butter and some brown sugar. Just enough to fill me up! Hopefully not enough to slow me down later with the digesting.

Loaded up the bikes and headed to Palo Alto… I started feeling nervous – I’ve been really struggling with panic attacks around riding my bicycle, and after talking with my dr about this, had tried on a few rides before, taking something to reduce the anxiety. Its actually been working really well. I CAN ride my bicycle, I just have occasional overwhelming fears that devolve into utter panic when I don’t need that reaction. Slowly, its abating, but its going to take more bike rides that push those boundaries. (which really, aren’t that bad, considering – 30 miles of rolling hills is doable on my style of bike, and when I’m not freaking out, I can average about 12 – 14 mph, 18 on the flats… )

I’m very grateful that Byron didn’t do the 75K ride and did the 50Km with me instead. It was good to have his support especially in the last few km when my legs started cramping up. I drank tons of electrolytes, but I think I hadn’t eaten enough of my cliff blocks. Still need to get back to the Endo to check those levels to see what’s up with that – sometimes its fine, sometimes, its insane. Today, my legs are still a little swollen from the bad cramping!

Good thing was no panic about riding, getting to a spot to stop, being able to stop, going fast downhill, all of that. I actually went fast enough downhill that I couldn’t pedal in the big rings! that was amazing, actually countersteering around the curves. So happy!

Funny moment getting into Woodside, there was someone BBQ’ing, and normally that would be ok, but my stomach was being very sensitive and I almost threw up from the smell. Another moment was a bicyclist who wasn’t on the ride with us, was parked on the side of the road and did this thing where he blew his nose to clear it just as I was riding past (he did it on the other side away from me, fortunately) but something about the noise also just made me actually retch while riding. I love Victoza, I love how its working for me, but these funny side effects of smells and being occasionally easily nauseated is really funny/sad/annoying, but mostly funny.

(that poor bicyclist, can you imagine if I’d actually barfed right next to him? heh.)

BTW: Blood sugar during the ride was also consistent, within 110-135 on my meter.

It was also great having people being so supportive, yelling ‘go red rider’ or saying it as I passed them, or they passed me. Byron was also awesome in cheering other riders along as well.

The hills weren’t terrible, they were completely doable, and it will be exciting to start pushing myself up steeper hills. There’s a 60 mile ride in the fall that I’ve already signed up for – its really going to be tough, so its time to up that ante in terms of working on hills.

So thank you again, everyone, for texting, tweeting, FB'ing, emailing me supportive messages while I was doing the ride. Thank you everyone for donating, and being super supportive in general. I'm so happy to be doing this for myself, and for continuing to get better at doing riding my bicycle!
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yea, so like its still doing its thing making me not want to eat much. But the only things I want to eat are... south indian SPICY foods! I mean, I totally want to go home to Amma for like a week.

The other great thing is that while I'm not eating much, I feel like my energy is doing really well! I had to jog half a mile today and it wasnt bad at all! (I sitll hate running, but I had to get to the car shop before they closed and I did it!) 

Next year, definitely planning on doing this event with close friends - I think the distraction of trying to get to know people who arent either friends, or at work and dont have the same professional level of trust and understanding, made this far harder than it should have been.
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Another almost week on Victoza. No insulin injected into me for almost two weeks now! 

Still have some naseua, and the slowing of food moving thru my stomach means I have to be ultra careful of not overeating. Testing to see what if anything causes trouble. Nothing really so far in terms of bad reactions - some uncomfortableness with some foods, checking again to see what combination caused it.

I'm a cheap drunk - 1.5 glasses of wine. I'm a cheap date - I can't eat much more than an appetizer.

So yesterday, we went bicycling, and it was cold and rainy and my blood sugars were good the entire time (except I dont know during the ride because it was too cold to get blood out of my fingers) - a late lunch of half of a buckwheat pancake with whipped cream, fresh berries was thoroughly enjoyed. Byronium and I had gone to get our toes done, and while at the salon, I got SUPER SLEEPY - which is usually my signal for, "oh, you stupid girl, you fucked up and ate too many carbs..." Freaking out, i check my blood sugar ... absolutely certain its going to be a TERRIBLE number (I ate a PANCAKE! with BERRIES! what was I thinking?) 

And found that the number was 104. Which is absolutely where I want it to be 2 hours after eating. Which meant I was simply sleepy because it was a cold, blustery, rainy day, I'd exerted myself that morning and now was relaxing with a lovely pedicure...

I mean, I was _just sleepy_!!! Like a normal girl! W000!

I refuse to continue to feel silly about how exciting that is for me. :)
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on Victoza - its already better than the Byetta - while I still have nausea its a lot better. (I can eat and exercise!) 

Blood sugars are a little higher overall, but in another week, I increase the Victoza and that should come down.

w00!

also, for[livejournal.com profile] bootblack_eddie :

http://www.blogher.com/taking-stink-out-math

and other links I thought useful I need to read more later: 

http://stemming.org/posts/libreplanet-notes

http://www.nytimes.com/2010/03/22/science/22women.html
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30 minutes today! listened to headfones and that worked out better.
fasting: 115 - I think too many sushi rolls last night. :( (bedtime was 155, kinda high as well!) 

Sunday, looking at doing a longer day, hoping that some other friends will join us - its accessible by bart!

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Today!

Jan. 13th, 2010 10:40 am
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35 minutes, all kindsa sweaty.

fasting: 90 (need to start checking evening sugars too!) 

Need to toss my room and find the heart rate monitor tho. Next week, I want to start making sure I'm training in the right ranges.
... )
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35 minutes, havent found my heart rate monitor yet. Fasting: 104, after a BAD blood sugar low at 3 am involving trashing the kitchen. I somehow managed not to over eat, got my blood sugar up to a good level before falling asleep again, but I feel awful today from lack of sleep.
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and didnt work out today. But I'm spending the evening painting walls, so maybe its not all bad.

I did however go mtn biking this weekend! it was tons of fun! It was really good to let go of the fear and relax into having a good time with it.

I also signed up for the ADA Tour De Cure coming up in May in Napa. I'd love for gentle readers to help me out with my personal goals with this, as well as support a good cause. http://main.diabetes.org/site/TR?pg=personal&fr_id=6899&px=5582011

I'm sure y'all will be hearing lots more about this coming up.

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... )

today : 35 minutes. Time to dig up the heart rate monitor...
Fasting: 85 (WHOOHOO!)

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Fasting: 88 (whoohoo!) 
Bicycling: only 20 minutes. I really need a rear wheel sensor.

Bus'd to work, the 14L drops you off right at Embarcadero, so not so bad, so another 20 min walk into work.

Reading a story by Lois McMaster Bujold, "The Sharing Knife" - ok so far, but i'm wary of NYTimes best sellers. :)

Tomorrow, possibly wfh again, so longer bike ride!
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another day, another 40 minutes...

on  one of the bestest xmas present evah - the bike trainer!! Today's fasting was 90, better than yesterday's of 109. Eating late STILL makes a difference.

Tomorrow, 45? :) 

(the bad news is that I've been carrying around holiday cards for a week without stamps. I MUST GO TO THE POST office tomorrow ) 
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so my eyes have been bothering me a lot lately. Turns out the move and dropping from Allegra back to Claritin isnt working so well, and I'm now having allergic issues around my eyes, which is coating my lenses and making it hard to see.
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I'm the sort of exhausted that comes from moving, being, and pushing myself. What an awesome day - I'd never been to santa cruz before, and we spent the day in and amongst the redwood trees - there's a scent there that's different from anyplace else.



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http://www.baltimoresun.com/news/opinion/oped/bal-op.fat29jul29,0,2610111.story

I know for me, weighing less, working out more, eating well all have an impact on me both physically and emotionally, but I hate that that bar is set for everyone, whether they actually have issues or not.



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Sunday: 10 miles involving some crazy elevation changes!  Having higher air pressure really helped.

Today: 4 miles on the stationery with some slight hills. I can knit and bicycle at the same time. I'm enjoying getting this hat finished.


Fasting blood sugars, even with eating late last night: 104
W00t!

edited to add: 
I was really depressed during the bicycle ride on Sunday - I felt so fat and out of shape and sluglike and angry at myself - I almost didnt enjoy it. During one of the my panting over the handlebar stops, I talked to byronium about whether HE was stressing about the ride in two weeks, and (reason 49541 why he's one of my best friends) he says, "No." Points out there are SAG trucks, and he'll do what he can and enjoy himself.

I realized that if it sucked, we could always call someone from Park Place to come get us, or he could go back and get hte car and get me, so I quit worrying about the ride so much, and concentrated on enjoying it and working on using the pedals more efficiently.

so.tired.

Jun. 5th, 2009 11:44 am
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I had a lovely dinner out with a friend last night; we went to Foreign Cinema, which neither of us had eaten at, but I'd heard good things about, and wanted to try.

First off, the drinks are named after movies, so  I had "The Last Temptation" - pomegranite margarita and a "Touch of Evil" which was tequla, cointreau, bitters and a twist of orange. Quite good, tho .. you know, bitter. :) 

We split the french onion soup, which was good, tho not as good as Chez Maman's on the weekend. We had a cheese platter with Black Butte Reserve and Mt. Tam from Cowgirl - the black butte was amazing with macerated berries, making me want something hard and sharp for Sunday as well. (minds. out of the gutter. I meant CHEESE)

She had the risotto with spinach and wild mushrooms - YUM, and I had the Duck Breast with cherries. ZOMG. i mean, seriously. 
... )

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Hanging out with my folks. This morning woke up to coffee, idli and sambar, and lunch is chappatis with whatever I want.

Amma is frying up pakoras, we're marinating tandoori chicken, and I'm looking thru their wine collection... folks should be showing up in the next few hours! I'm looking forward to it.

Read more... )dunno about making it to the brooklyn botanical gardens tomorrow - sadness on my part, but next visit - which will be sooner rather than later, I'll find out wednesday when I'm back to NY and LawnGuyLand...

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